Update: 10-17-15

I just wanted to share how things have been going for the Muñoz' lately!
Life has been so crazy lately I can't even tell you what all has happened... It's been a hoot! ;)

Moving to Indiana has been a blessing for our family in more ways than I could explain!
We have found a great church and we have started homeschooling! This Momma is loving it too!
We have made some great friends, we miss our life in Texas yes, but we know the Lord has great plans for us here...
Excited to live them out!

We purchased a van today as a family vehicle! New to us!
I'm about to sit and watch some Disney with the kiddos... I'm just living life with my little family at the moment and couldn't ask for more! ;)
 

Updating... Man its been too long

So much has happened since I was on here last...

Where to begin?

 

Well recently we as a family made the move to Indiana due to my husbands job... He had been laid at his other job In Texas and couldn't find anything in his line of work so he started to look elsewhere. Needless to say he found work in Indiana therefore we are now here and enjoying our fresh new start!

 

We will be starting a new journey of homeschooling this year and look forward to what the year will bring! Everything has changed but we are excited to see how it all goes...

We believe we have found a church, but will continue to pray for God's will in the situation and all that comes with it! We want nothing more than to be in God's will for our lives!

 

I started a new journey as well and have lost over 200 lbs. I will post pictures soon, but for now let me just say this...

I am thriving and surviving with the Lord's help!

I look forward to seeing and living what the Lord has planned for our family!  

 

 

Quick Update...

It has been a very long while since I have been on here and a lot has been going on and happening! Life has gotten busy and slowed down off and on and here and there! Things are crazy at the moment, we don't know exactly where we will end up in a few weeks, but I am keeping faith in God and that He will make a way and show us the way that He wants us to go! 

My kids have gotten so big over the last year and I just want to stop time with them and hold them as my little babies again! My daughter Serenity turned 10 this past April and is now in the 5th grade. My son Andrew just turned 9 on December 16 and is now in the 3rd grade. Time sure is flying it seems and its hard to look at that at times and not get emotional. Serenity is still dancing and doing what she loves... Andrew gas gotten into baseball more this year and we are hopefully going to be signing up again for the Spring season in January. 

My husband and I will celebrate 12 years come June 2015 and that in itself can be hard to believe for me at times, only because I can't believe its been that long already. Craziness to me...

I've been going through some changes in my life as well... I've lost a total so far of 137 lbs. and still trucking along! My highest weight I let myself get to was 407 lbs. and then I got down to 385 lbs. and I finally just couldn't take it anymore and had to do something about it. I went and joined Planet Fitness and am trying to eat as healthy as I can. Of course this is the holiday season and the toughest part of the year, so its not at all easy at the moment... I've already gained a few pounds, but I plan on hitting it hard starting up again at the gym as soon as the New Year starts! 

I'm trying hard to have the best relationship I can with my sister and keep everything civil and keep an adult friendly relationship.

She has been going through a lot of changes with her life as well and I pray for her on a daily bases. We both realize that we can't live this life the way that we used to and get through it as sisters if we are bickering all the time. There is no sense in fighting anymore in my opinion. We work on our relationship daily...

Life has been tough the last few months... my husband may be moving to a new location with his work, which means leaving his family behind for a bit and us having to live separately for a while. It is in no way going to be easy, because I rely on him a lot and I know that it is not only going to be a test for my relationship with him, but also for the relationship we have as a family. I'm not going to lie, I'm scared out of my mind. Its a huge leap of faith, and I'm gong to have to do a lot of praying to get me through it all.
Not only that, but the house that we are renting, the owners are going through a divorce/separation and are selling the house so we will have to find a new place to live SOON! All this while my husband is supposed to be away from work. I am worried, paranoid, and stressed...

I can't help but just wish it would all fall into place like I want it to, but I also know that God has bigger plans. 

Our relationship with the Lord hasn't always been a good one, but I'm trying hard to work on that as well and get my kids and myself back into the swing of things and back in church where we SHOULD be. It seems like since going back to church and trying to get back on track that the devil is really trying to destroy every piece that we try to put back together and into place. We will keep on keeping on though. God is good and still on the throne!

Hanging out with the Kids!

Having a good day today! The pain I've been having is in association with what I've been diagnosed with and I can say it isn't very pleasant but today was a good day I'd say all in all. 

I'm sure I'll have worse days than most but I'm glad today was a good day! :) 

I'm sitting outside right now while my kiddos swim. Tomorrow Serenity has a swim day at the local pool that all the 3rd graders are going to and in order to jump off the diving board she has to be able to pass a swim test. Which isn't a problem but she wanted to practice. Kids are enjoying themselves so all in all I'm happy! I'm just trying to keep my mind off things and hope that my mind doesn't wander and go back to what's really been bothering me! I have no control over any of this and I need to stay positive for my family! 

Hate can be a strong word...

I know that hate is a strong word.... but I have a few things that I feel I need to get off my chest!

I hate that my parents had us live the way that they did.
I hate that they cared so much more for themselves than they did for us as kids.
I hate that we had to rely on perfect strangers to take us in and raise us for the majority of our lives.
I hate that because of the decisions that they made we had to live in constant fear and depression wondering what was going to happen next.

Because of these things I was seperated from the people I loved so much. I was moved from my home state and told that I wouldnt be able to come back. I was never treated fairly and I had no say in where I went or whom I went with. Because of the decisions of my parents I no longer have a relationship with one and the other one is no longer here to have a relationship with.
I don't have a relationship with my dad... Have no desire to actually because all he knows how to do is use and abuse people. I don't have a relationship with my one and only sibling because my family has found a way to ruin that as well. She for some reason has some kind of resentment towards me and won't tell me why and I don't think she really even knows herself ... its all drama with her. Honestly I'm happier and better off not having relationships with my natural family because all it seems to ever be is drama and stress. I try so hard not to have those specific things in my life. There's really no room for it.
Time will go on and I'll make friends and I have a step mom (no longer married to my father) that I consider my family! I also have family on my husbands side that I'm close to.
It's a strange and confusing situation that I'm sure sometimes I don't even understand at times myself.

Recital Pictures

Dance pictures were today at the studio and I have to say I'm super excited to see how they turn out. All the girls looked so pretty and had their hair and makeup done. It's going to be a very good recital this year. Looking forward to it very much. With all that I've found out the past few days I hope I'm here to see it all take place and enjoy it. I'm praying everything goes well and we can all attend and it all go as planned. 

Today went by slow at first but then spun into overdrive with all the pictures being taken at the studio. I loved every minute of it and it kept my mind off other things that have been going on. 

Life's about to spin out of control and I just want to keep my feet planted!! 

People of the past

 

I'm looking forward to the best and brightest future possible for me and my family!

The past few days have shown me that taking negative people and drama out of my life will do wonders. Things have already started to look up.

In no way do I wish harm or negativity towards people who are no longer in my life... If anything I wish them all the best and that's the only thing that I wish... is that things turn out well for you and your family! I can't say that I am happy about the situation, but maybe it is for the best. We have never been close, but I don't blame anyone else for that but my parents because of the nature that we were raised and brought up in. That is something that is not and was never in our control.  Do I think that we could have tried harder to work things out, YES but not everything always works out the way that we want it to and maybe that's Gods plan.

 

Got some bad news yesterday and I'm pretty scared about it and to tell you the truth I'm down right horrified... as to how its going to turn out...who knows?? The only person that I can talk to about it lives over 14,000 miles away and texting/phone calls are just not the same. I am learning to live with it, but its going to be hard as hell... I'm SCARED!!

 

I will not let the past control who I am and the people of my past control who I become!