Busy Busy BEE!!!

We have had a very busy past few weeks!

With our friend Benjamin having back surgery and our daughters kickball games, and Dance classes and Ben and Michelle are moving next door to us as well.
Everything seems to be going on all at once!
I have to say that I am thankful for being busy and keeping busy! I want nothing more than to be out of the house and on my feet as much as I can be.

Serenity has been doing so well with kickball lately... They recently won their 1st game! Sad I know considering they have played about 4 or 5 now! LOL

She loves it though and I am grateful.
She loves dance even more and I can see that, but she wants to do both. She is also now wanting to go back to gymnastics and get further into learning certain moves and things.

I am so proud of her and can not wait till her next performance in Houston Texas in May!

I am looking forward to signing Andrew up for football in August and hoping that he enjoys it and stays in it. I am ready to see him get into something that we can all watch and enjoy while he plays!

My appointment went well

I had an appointment with my Urologist today to let me know when I will be having the surgery to remove the pesky little stint that I have. I finally have a set date and an x ray that I have to have before I go in to the next appointment. I am looking forward to this all getting taken care of. I have to be on medication most likely for the rest of my life, but I am ok with that as long as the pain is gone or at least to a minimum. I am so tired of being in pain and thinking that I am never going to get past this. Its horrible to have to go through this every day. I just cant wait till the day that I can say that I no longer have pain. I may never be to where I will never have kidney stones, but as long as it is manageable I am ok with that.
He has me taking these med's and drinking baking soda water after every meal so I have to force myself to do these things. Whatever it takes to get better is all that I am going to do. I want to be healthy for myself, my kids, and husband.

So if you get the chance and you think about me; remember to pray that I get better and that the Lord heals me. I just want to live a normal life as a mommy, wife, and servant of God.

Bless you all.

Busy Day Ahead of US

Tomorrow is going to be a busy day.
We have to go and put the deposit on the new place that we are trying to get into and my cousin is going to be induced tomorrow as well. I am worried about her. I always am when it comes to these things.
Michael is also applying for a new job tomorrow and I am always nervous about those things as well.
I am beside myself and I don't know what to do.
I am doing better today.
I try not to think about my mom as much.
I found myself calling her a few times today by accident.
I don't know why I just did! I hung up by the time that I noticed it though.

I think that its going to take me a while to get used to the idea that she is actually gone and that I cant just up and call her whenever I feel like it.
Time will heal these wounds of mine though.

Moms funeral today

My mother's funeral will be today and then they will be cremating her and sending her ashes to me and my sister. This is what she asked for.
We plan on having our own little service for her here and then spreading her ashes as she hoped across the ocean here at the beach that we live near by.
Its going to be hard, but I think that it will make the process easier and that we will have our own way of saying goodbye like we needed.
It's still hard to believe that she is gone and that I cant just call her up and say Hello.
I feel as though it hasn't completely hit me yet that she is gone and that I cant reach her the way that I used to.
I know that she is better off and that I can rest assure that she is in Heaven with our Father who loves us and takes care of us. I believe that she left this earth walking hand in hand with Jesus.

I love you mom and I will always love you and miss you!
Hugs, Love, and kisses to you!
Be blessed and I will see you again someday!

My Momma!

When I woke up this morning I had no idea that I would be in the condition that I am in now.
I am numb. I am cold. I feel at a loss for words.
I honestly sit here with no idea what to say or how to say it.

I'm having a really hard time with this right now and I don't even know how to handle it.
I don't know how to feel, think, or even react.
I don't know whether to be upset, mad, angry, confused, separated, or what even.
Its all just a blur to me.

MY MOM HAS PASSED AWAY!
What am I gonna do without my momma?
I haven't seen her since June, but I know that she wasn't in good health.
I know that I called her last week when she had the stroke and found out that she had an aneurysm on her brain. But she was doing OK. I know that she was hurting last night and that she went to bed and never woke up.
My step father woke up and realized that she wasn't awake yet and that she hadn't gotten up to make the usual morning coffee.
He went in to check on her and found her cold and blood coming out of her nose, mouth, and ears.
I know that she is walking hand in hand with Jesus as of last night.
That He came and He walked her home to her mansion in Glory.
That alone gives me some peace and hope!

If Only a hint...

Sometimes I sit and wonder when it will be our turn...
When will we get the house that I feel we deserve and the break that we need? It's so hard sometimes.
You know; when my husband lost his job a few months back I thought that our whole world was going to fall apart and at times I feel it has. But I do know that it has opened a door that we thought would never be opened again.
Michael has started college again and is doing very well.
He is working his patootie off to just try and make it through the month.

I know that the Lord has his reasons for everything... sometimes I just wish that he would just give us a hint at times; even though I know that if He did that we wouldn't learn the lesson that we are supposed to.
I just want to live a happy and healthy life with my husband and my kids. I look forward to the day where I can say that I have my own home, but until then I will thank the Lord for what I DO have and praise Him and be grateful.

In remembrance of 9/11

Here is a picture of my daughter Serenity.
This morning she wore red, white, and blue in remembrance of 9/11.
I think that she looks adorable.