Update: 10-17-15

I just wanted to share how things have been going for the Muñoz' lately!
Life has been so crazy lately I can't even tell you what all has happened... It's been a hoot! ;)

Moving to Indiana has been a blessing for our family in more ways than I could explain!
We have found a great church and we have started homeschooling! This Momma is loving it too!
We have made some great friends, we miss our life in Texas yes, but we know the Lord has great plans for us here...
Excited to live them out!

We purchased a van today as a family vehicle! New to us!
I'm about to sit and watch some Disney with the kiddos... I'm just living life with my little family at the moment and couldn't ask for more! ;)
 

Updating... Man its been too long

So much has happened since I was on here last...

Where to begin?

 

Well recently we as a family made the move to Indiana due to my husbands job... He had been laid at his other job In Texas and couldn't find anything in his line of work so he started to look elsewhere. Needless to say he found work in Indiana therefore we are now here and enjoying our fresh new start!

 

We will be starting a new journey of homeschooling this year and look forward to what the year will bring! Everything has changed but we are excited to see how it all goes...

We believe we have found a church, but will continue to pray for God's will in the situation and all that comes with it! We want nothing more than to be in God's will for our lives!

 

I started a new journey as well and have lost over 200 lbs. I will post pictures soon, but for now let me just say this...

I am thriving and surviving with the Lord's help!

I look forward to seeing and living what the Lord has planned for our family!  

 

 

Quick Update...

It has been a very long while since I have been on here and a lot has been going on and happening! Life has gotten busy and slowed down off and on and here and there! Things are crazy at the moment, we don't know exactly where we will end up in a few weeks, but I am keeping faith in God and that He will make a way and show us the way that He wants us to go! 

My kids have gotten so big over the last year and I just want to stop time with them and hold them as my little babies again! My daughter Serenity turned 10 this past April and is now in the 5th grade. My son Andrew just turned 9 on December 16 and is now in the 3rd grade. Time sure is flying it seems and its hard to look at that at times and not get emotional. Serenity is still dancing and doing what she loves... Andrew gas gotten into baseball more this year and we are hopefully going to be signing up again for the Spring season in January. 

My husband and I will celebrate 12 years come June 2015 and that in itself can be hard to believe for me at times, only because I can't believe its been that long already. Craziness to me...

I've been going through some changes in my life as well... I've lost a total so far of 137 lbs. and still trucking along! My highest weight I let myself get to was 407 lbs. and then I got down to 385 lbs. and I finally just couldn't take it anymore and had to do something about it. I went and joined Planet Fitness and am trying to eat as healthy as I can. Of course this is the holiday season and the toughest part of the year, so its not at all easy at the moment... I've already gained a few pounds, but I plan on hitting it hard starting up again at the gym as soon as the New Year starts! 

I'm trying hard to have the best relationship I can with my sister and keep everything civil and keep an adult friendly relationship.

She has been going through a lot of changes with her life as well and I pray for her on a daily bases. We both realize that we can't live this life the way that we used to and get through it as sisters if we are bickering all the time. There is no sense in fighting anymore in my opinion. We work on our relationship daily...

Life has been tough the last few months... my husband may be moving to a new location with his work, which means leaving his family behind for a bit and us having to live separately for a while. It is in no way going to be easy, because I rely on him a lot and I know that it is not only going to be a test for my relationship with him, but also for the relationship we have as a family. I'm not going to lie, I'm scared out of my mind. Its a huge leap of faith, and I'm gong to have to do a lot of praying to get me through it all.
Not only that, but the house that we are renting, the owners are going through a divorce/separation and are selling the house so we will have to find a new place to live SOON! All this while my husband is supposed to be away from work. I am worried, paranoid, and stressed...

I can't help but just wish it would all fall into place like I want it to, but I also know that God has bigger plans. 

Our relationship with the Lord hasn't always been a good one, but I'm trying hard to work on that as well and get my kids and myself back into the swing of things and back in church where we SHOULD be. It seems like since going back to church and trying to get back on track that the devil is really trying to destroy every piece that we try to put back together and into place. We will keep on keeping on though. God is good and still on the throne!

Hanging out with the Kids!

Having a good day today! The pain I've been having is in association with what I've been diagnosed with and I can say it isn't very pleasant but today was a good day I'd say all in all. 

I'm sure I'll have worse days than most but I'm glad today was a good day! :) 

I'm sitting outside right now while my kiddos swim. Tomorrow Serenity has a swim day at the local pool that all the 3rd graders are going to and in order to jump off the diving board she has to be able to pass a swim test. Which isn't a problem but she wanted to practice. Kids are enjoying themselves so all in all I'm happy! I'm just trying to keep my mind off things and hope that my mind doesn't wander and go back to what's really been bothering me! I have no control over any of this and I need to stay positive for my family! 

Hate can be a strong word...

I know that hate is a strong word.... but I have a few things that I feel I need to get off my chest!

I hate that my parents had us live the way that they did.
I hate that they cared so much more for themselves than they did for us as kids.
I hate that we had to rely on perfect strangers to take us in and raise us for the majority of our lives.
I hate that because of the decisions that they made we had to live in constant fear and depression wondering what was going to happen next.

Because of these things I was seperated from the people I loved so much. I was moved from my home state and told that I wouldnt be able to come back. I was never treated fairly and I had no say in where I went or whom I went with. Because of the decisions of my parents I no longer have a relationship with one and the other one is no longer here to have a relationship with.
I don't have a relationship with my dad... Have no desire to actually because all he knows how to do is use and abuse people. I don't have a relationship with my one and only sibling because my family has found a way to ruin that as well. She for some reason has some kind of resentment towards me and won't tell me why and I don't think she really even knows herself ... its all drama with her. Honestly I'm happier and better off not having relationships with my natural family because all it seems to ever be is drama and stress. I try so hard not to have those specific things in my life. There's really no room for it.
Time will go on and I'll make friends and I have a step mom (no longer married to my father) that I consider my family! I also have family on my husbands side that I'm close to.
It's a strange and confusing situation that I'm sure sometimes I don't even understand at times myself.

Recital Pictures

Dance pictures were today at the studio and I have to say I'm super excited to see how they turn out. All the girls looked so pretty and had their hair and makeup done. It's going to be a very good recital this year. Looking forward to it very much. With all that I've found out the past few days I hope I'm here to see it all take place and enjoy it. I'm praying everything goes well and we can all attend and it all go as planned. 

Today went by slow at first but then spun into overdrive with all the pictures being taken at the studio. I loved every minute of it and it kept my mind off other things that have been going on. 

Life's about to spin out of control and I just want to keep my feet planted!! 

People of the past

 

I'm looking forward to the best and brightest future possible for me and my family!

The past few days have shown me that taking negative people and drama out of my life will do wonders. Things have already started to look up.

In no way do I wish harm or negativity towards people who are no longer in my life... If anything I wish them all the best and that's the only thing that I wish... is that things turn out well for you and your family! I can't say that I am happy about the situation, but maybe it is for the best. We have never been close, but I don't blame anyone else for that but my parents because of the nature that we were raised and brought up in. That is something that is not and was never in our control.  Do I think that we could have tried harder to work things out, YES but not everything always works out the way that we want it to and maybe that's Gods plan.

 

Got some bad news yesterday and I'm pretty scared about it and to tell you the truth I'm down right horrified... as to how its going to turn out...who knows?? The only person that I can talk to about it lives over 14,000 miles away and texting/phone calls are just not the same. I am learning to live with it, but its going to be hard as hell... I'm SCARED!!

 

I will not let the past control who I am and the people of my past control who I become!

 

Rearranging

God rearranges things in your life when He alone knows what's best for us. Obviously I feel that's what He is doing. I know He's on my side and it feels good to know that! I'm happy now that I don't have to worry about the jealousy that came with being friends with certain people. Friendship means more to me obviously than it does to others... or so it seems. I don't need people that use me and talk about me behind my back in my life. Those aren't real friends, Never were; never have been.

It makes me excited that God has bigger plans for my life. I'm just sorry that it took me this long to let Him take control!

I have good friends that appreciate me and LOVE me and I don't want to lose those friendships. I will bend over backwards for my friends! I will do what I can, when I can. I try my hardest and that's all I know how to do! I will give you the shirt off my back and I will lay down my life for the few friends that I have! Good friends are hard to come by and I count and consider myself very blessed to have the friends that I do have!

 

 

Life Is Moving Fast...

Life is moving faster than I expected it seems and I can honestly say that I am happier now than I was a few years ago. Its hard to believe that I have been married almost 10 years in June and that my oldest child just turned 9 and my youngest 7. Time goes by so fast when you are having fun and things are really taking shape and going well. My life is changing... especially recently and I think its God's way of saying/telling me to MOVE ON! Sometimes He brings people into your life to help you learn from mistakes and to grow... Obviously He has a sense of humor! lol

I am who I am and I can't help it if you can't handle that! I live my life to please GOD not others! I will not make the same mistake twice that's for sure! I'm tired of having relationships with people who bring me nothing but drama and turmoil! I will not have myself, my family, or my kids around people like that!

BUTT OUT!!

What I do is my business!! If you don't like how I live my life... You don't have to be a part of it! Believe me; I don't mind you being abscent from it.

I'm so sick of people trying to tell me that I spoil my kids and that I shouldn't allow them to have this or that! 

Do you pay my bills?? 

Do you take care of my kids or my family?? 

NO!! 

Therefore BUTT OUT!!

Yes my 8yr. Old daughter has a cell phone and goes to dance... My 6yr. Old is in football and baseball... You don't pay for that and you don't take them to there activities! 

I can't help it that your situation is different than mine and that you can't do the things that our family does. Don't be jealous of my life and my family and friendships so much that you feel the need to talk about it all the time. 

Get your own life and make your own decisions and leave me and my family out of your mouth!! 

1st day of the 1st and 3rd Grade!!

It is the 1st day back to school for my babies!

I can honestly say that I am nervous for them, but I am looking forward to the new beginnings that they are going to start and share!

Serenity is starting 3rd grade and has 2 teachers; Mrs. Story and Mrs. Book!! (yes I know how crazy is that)

Andrew is starting the 1st grade and has only one teacher; Mrs. Chapman!

Their teachers are young and seem to be very sweet! I hope that they have a great first day back to school!

It is a new year and new beginnings because they are at a NEW SCHOOL!

They were at Woodriver and are now at East! Its the same district just a different school!

I am honestly so excited but a little sad at the same time because my babies are growing up and with that is new responsibilities and journeys for us ALL!

So good Luck on your first day MY LOVES!

 

A test of true friendships...

"A true friend doesn’t care when you are broke, being a "pain in the butt", what you weigh, if your house is a mess, what you drive, about your past, or if your family is filled with crazy people. Your conversations pick up where they left off, even if it has been months (or even years) apart. They love you for who you are."

This quote has become a reality to me in the past week!! 

I have had to look hard and deep into my friendships lately! 

I have figured out in the past week that there were people in my life that were obviously using me for whatever their reason may be and I've realized they were never truly my friend to begin with. 

I don't like that I have wasted my time and energy on these specific people, but I also realized that maybe they were put in my path to teach me to become more aware of my surroundings and to love the REAL friends that I DO have! 

I don't know what to think or necessarily how to feel about all this just yet, because I had a lot of memories with this person and I loved her family like they were my family. 

I'm confused and hurt all at the same time... It's hard to think about at times because they were a good part of my life or so I thought! 

I don't know what or how to feel about it all really?!??! 

Playing catch up...

Sooo... Things have been crazy lately!! 

We are staying with my step mom at the moment and have been for a few months now, but are hoping to be moving at the end of September! We have been looking at places and have been mainly looking for a nice three bedroom home. 

My husbands work has picked up and at the moment he is out of town on a job training trip to further his skills! We are excited for the next step in his job and are praying that Lord guide his way through this and whatever His will may be... Let it be!! 

God has truly been so good to us and I am so grateful! 

We recently around the 1st week of July went on a cruise with my daughters dance studio and were able to relax and enjoy some much needed family time. We went to NOLA as some people call it (New Orleans) Louisiana; and boarded the cruise ship and then headed towards Progresso and then Cozumel Mexico. It was such a beautiful experience and I really hope we can do it again in the near future. 

School is about to start next week and I am super excited because the kids will be going to a new school that I think has a better staff and makes you feel so much more welcome! My daughter will be starting 3rd grade and my son will be starting 1st grade. I can't believe how much my babies have grown! 

I pray that everyone is doing well and enjoying the remainder of their summer. 

Remember to always love yourself and therefore it will help you to love others!! 

Frustrated about my hubby's work right now

I'm so frustrated right now!! Not with the fact that my husband is getting more hours but with the fact that I have NO time with him at all!! I love that he takes care of us and that he is doing all he can to make sure we have what we need and want for nothing! It's just hard because I guess you could say that I want the best of both worlds. Him to work like he is right now and to be able spend that quality time with him as a family!!

I feel like I'm being selfish about it but then again I feel like I have a right to be! I'm confused and getting depressed about it. It's hard to deal with at times and I can't stand the feeling of not having any kind of control over my emotions on it.

Lord help me!!!

Happy Birthday Serenity

8 years ago today God blessed me with one of the greatest gifts in my life... He gave me my precious Serenity Starlene to Love, care for, and treasure... I am truly one blessed momma!! Happy Birthday my sweet girl!

1st Competition of the Season

Had a crazy weekend in San Antonio Texas with Showstopper Dance Championships!

We are now home and trying to recuperate! lol





My daughter did her thing with her group and they won 1st place in their division and 1st place overall! Woot Woot! This was just for one dance of the three that they had to perform!!
The entire Dance Studio did a group number called POP DROP AND ROLL and won first place overall as well. I am so excited and happy for these girls!
I bought my daughter and her friend Jade a tiara when they won the last competition because they have been working so hard! These girls are just getting started! I can not wait till the next competition on March 3rd!!

The Holidays are coming! :)

Christmas is just around the corner and things are getting hectic. The hubby did some black Friday shopping this weekend and got some pretty good deals. Right now he is installing the new car stereo player in the car. Its taking a lot longer than he expected because they gave him the wrong wires when he went to buy the kit... He finally got the right ones after going to almost every auto store in town... he went to best buy and they had what he needed. lol :)

I went to watch the new Breaking dawn movie and stood in line 3 hours to see it. I had bought my tickets in October so I knew that I would see it, but I had to wait in line because that's just how it is... lol! I think the Saturday after it premiered I went and saw it again with my friend Nathalie. It was so good to see her again and I hope that we get to spend some more time together soon. The girls hadn't seen each other in a few years and it was as if you hadn't ever separated them. I enjoyed watching them converse and play. It was nice! I miss that!

Andrew's football season is over, but we are thinking that it's right on time for fall baseball season. He's excited about that too! Serenity's in dance still and it's getting close to competitive season time and that means traveling for us! I am excited for that; so is she! :)

Hope that everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving and got to spend much needed time with family and friends!

Wishing you all the best!

I apologize

I'm sitting here and I'm looking back on things that happened in my life. I realize that I was and am not perfect. I have done some pretty dumb things in my life and I have made allot of mistakes. I know that I have treated some people badly and I have to say that I am sorry for that.

To a certain someone...
I'm sorry that I wasn't there for you when you needed me the most. When your brother passed away and when you needed a shoulder to cry on. When you were dealing with abusive parents and going through things that you should have never had to deal with. I'm sorry that when you were going through hard times that I wasn't there or that I made certain situations about me. I'm sorry that I let certain people get in the way of our friendship. I obviously was so naive at that time that I had no idea that I was hurting you when now that I look back it was obvious to me. I was selfish and inconsiderate. It was rude of me to do these things and to make a bad situation worse. I made things about me at times and I apologize for that! I'm sorry that even after being separated for 2 years that when we made contact again that I did the same thing. I know now that I have things that I need to continuously work on. You were always there for me and I wasn't always there for you. Your family pretty much took me in when I needed it the most and I am so grateful to you and your MiMi and Pau Pau for that. Thank you for being my friend and I'm truly grateful for that!
I will admit to my faults, even the ones that I had no idea what I did at the time and don't know about to this day!
I'm SORRY!

Camp Pulse

I can not express to you all the fun that we had this weekend!
We got to spend time with some wonderful people and some great friends.

Here is our dance group with our instructors and with the cast and crew from Camp Pulse...

Notice anyone?

Serenity with a crew member and Claude Racine from Shake It Up and Camp Rock

Kaili from ReQuest on Americas Best Dance Crew and David Moore from Step Up 3D

Yes that IS... Lane Napper from Victorious and iCarly!
This is Kherington Payne from Glee and Fame!

My Serenity love! I just love that she had so much fun. We can not wait till next year!
Let me just say that these were the sweetest people. Such great spirits from all of them. So patient and kind with everyone that they met!
I was very pleased!

Starting A New Journey!

Started a new journey 2 days ago.
I decided to change my life!
I joined Curves and I am 2 days in and I'm liking it so far. I know that there are going to be days when I just don't want to go and that I just don't feel up to it.
Its hard to fight the urge to just be able to eat whatever I want to when I want to but I know that I have to do something about my weight now so that I can be in my kids lives later!

The hardest part for me so far was when I walked into the Curves and I saw the scale. I am a overweight woman... I know what I weight approximately and I knew right away that the scale would not weight me. I was embarrassed and fearful all at the same time. I was overcome with so many different emotions. I didn't know what to think or even say to the lady at the counter.

I am grateful that I was among people that have been through what I have or have dealt with many of the issues that I have. So far things have gone good. I am praying that by next JULY that I will have lost at 50-75 pounds and will be able to comfortably walk around the cruise ship that my daughters National Dance Competition will be on. I am excited, but I still do not want to get my hopes up!