Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Remembering all the Pain

Ok! So I am totally missing my friends from Ky right now. Sometimes I sit and think about what it would have been like had my mom not decided to abandon me and send me to live with my dad in TX. For a long time I hated her for doing what she did and at times I think about it and I still get angry. I had a great life in Ky... I had friends and FAMILY living there. Things weren't great but I was HOME and I was HAPPY! I know that if things hadn't turned out the way that they did that I wouldn't have the Loves of my life right now! I am eternally grateful to God for my children and my husband. I hate that I had to stand at the terminal and say goodbye to the bestest friend that God gave me and know that I wasn't coming back...

You see my mom had told me that I was going to visit my dad for 2 weeks; so I was excited and nervous at the same time. I was happy to go see him and scared cause I hadn't seen him in 4 years. I didn't know who my dad was anymore so I was scared to death that I wasn't going to like my trip at all. Needless to say... my mom decides to tell me right before I bored the plain to fly and see him for what I thought was a visit; that I wasn't coming back. That this trip was permanent and that I was going to live with my father. I had no idea!!

I told her that I hated her and that I never wanted to see her again... I didn't and I meant every word.

I had to tell my best friend that I wasn't coming back and say goodbye forever... (not knowing that I would come and visit from time to time when I could)

It hurts to have to deal and go through something like this when your a sophomore in high school.

I am grateful that to this day I am still friends and will forever love my friend Becky. I have gained a friend through her (her Hubby WALLY) and the love of a little girl that is her daughter! I LOVE YOU REBECCA!!

For A Lifetime 2

0 comments:

Post a Comment

Thank you for sharing your comments with me! Comments that are deemed by the blog author to be rude, argumentative, or other wise offensive will not be published.

Music is My Life!!!


Get a playlist! Standalone player Get Ringtones