Free to be who I want to be

I want to be what everyone else wants to see.
What everyone pictures me to be, but I cant stand it any longer.
I have to be what I feel deep down inside I know is right. I dont want to hurt anyone and I dont want to think about it anymore.
Why should I live my life for everyone else and not be happy inside and out?
I will live for myself and no one else. (but God)

Life seems too hard when I know that it could be so simple. Why do we make it so hard on ourselves? Why do I have to care so much about what people think? I am so tired of it all!!!

Are you ready for the call?

Are you ready for the trumpet?
Are you ready for the call?
Soon the angels will assemble
To usher in the Son of God
Will he come to find you faithful?
Or will he know your name at all?
Every moment brings us closer.
Are you ready for the call?

Photography

I have found that I have grown fond of a new passion. I am eager to get started on it too.

PHOTOGRAPHY!

I cant wait to see all that it involves and what all that I am capable of doing with a lens focused on a subject or an object.
I can tell you honestly that I have always loved using a camera and taking pictures. Its just a passionate hobby that I have always wanted to do something with.

Note to a Helpless Child...

I know with the things that you are going through and you may be feeling doubtful but know this:
He Know He Cares
Where you are; He's Right there
He Sees, Your Heart
All the hidden Broken Parts
Let Him take you in His Arms
Jesus knows just where you are...

You may be walking through a storm right now; it may even seem as though you are crawling on your knees trying to find your way out.
Just know that you can call on him when YOU need HIM...

Think these words...
Say the Name Jesus
Say the Name Most Precious
Say the name theres No other name I know
Who can calm your fears
who can dry your tears
Who can wash away the pain.
When you dont have the words to say
Just say the name

I am praying for you Hun and I know that He is walking with you through the Valley!

These are songs that have gotten me through alot in life.
I did not in any way write these songs.
These are songs that we sing in church!

School days are here again...

Serenity started school last week and I am enjoying being able to get up with her and sending her off to school. The first day was hard, (for me anyways) but she did well. She has no problem whatsoever getting up in the morning. Half the time when I go in her room to get her up she is waiting on me. I am so proud of her. She has proven to me that she is responsible and she is only 4.

She has year round school and comes home early due to the fact that she is only in Pre-K4. She really enjoys herself there too and I know that she is getting what she needs to learn the basics. She is very smart to begin with and they have already made it known that she gets bored at times cause she knows the lessons already. Sad but true(she was in a private school before now...(more advanced I guess)

I am still going to stay at home with my son Drew and take care of him till he is of school age and then we will decide whether or not I will go back to work or if we will withdrawl the kids from Public school and do Homeschooling at the house. Its a big decision that is going to take lots of prayer. And prayers are always greatly needed and appreciated. I am now currently waiting for picture day and trying to find the perfect outfit for that special day...

Schools Starts and Drama Ends for NOW...

Well today is a new day and I am a new person it seems to me at least...
My daughter started school on Monday and I have been going crazy since. I am so proud of myself getting her up every morning with no problem and getting her off to school. My Hubby's sister has been taking her to school for me cause we do not have a working car as of right now. I think that Serenity likes that though. We may have to keep it that way. I really think that it motivates her to get up and go in the mornings cause she knows that she is going to see one of her favorite persons (Aunt Aurora).
I have been doing good waking up on time which has been a while since I have been able to do that and not be cranky. Although I have been getting up on time I have been feeling a little under the weather due to a urinary tract infection that has torn me up inside. Needless to say I am not feeling well at the moment. I have been having stomach pains for a few days now and have been on the verge of vomiting a few times a day.
Anywho; enough about that drama. I havent talked to my dad in about week and I can honestly tell you that it feels good to not have to deal with that from day to day. Michaels mom has changed her course of anger I guess I should say and has been letting speak my mind and getting out what I feel about the situation that I went through with her. Its hard to believe the things that I have gone through starting at the beginning of the summer till now. Its been a long summer so far and I hope that things start to work out for the better.
We have started to go to a new little church too, not cause we want to leave the Church that we litterally grew up in spiritually; but because, well there are a few reasons. We wont talk about that just yet. We like it as a family cause its a small church of about (MAYBE) 30 people which means that we are like a family. We have had some really great services unto the Lord there already and have only been going for a few weeks... I am excited to say the least to see how the Lord is going to use us there.

Well I guess thats all for now. I'll be back soon.

By the way; where is this senceless Hurricane Dolly at??? LOL

Times of Change

I am to the point that I feel that it is time to change everything around me. I am through having to prove myself to any of you and I dont think that I should have to justify my decision to do so.

I have had enough! I am moving on. On to a new life all of my own with my family. My husband and Kids and me are no longer your trophies and your punching bag. Get on with your bitterness and your life and let me live mine...