People of the past

 

I'm looking forward to the best and brightest future possible for me and my family!

The past few days have shown me that taking negative people and drama out of my life will do wonders. Things have already started to look up.

In no way do I wish harm or negativity towards people who are no longer in my life... If anything I wish them all the best and that's the only thing that I wish... is that things turn out well for you and your family! I can't say that I am happy about the situation, but maybe it is for the best. We have never been close, but I don't blame anyone else for that but my parents because of the nature that we were raised and brought up in. That is something that is not and was never in our control.  Do I think that we could have tried harder to work things out, YES but not everything always works out the way that we want it to and maybe that's Gods plan.

 

Got some bad news yesterday and I'm pretty scared about it and to tell you the truth I'm down right horrified... as to how its going to turn out...who knows?? The only person that I can talk to about it lives over 14,000 miles away and texting/phone calls are just not the same. I am learning to live with it, but its going to be hard as hell... I'm SCARED!!

 

I will not let the past control who I am and the people of my past control who I become!

 

Rearranging

God rearranges things in your life when He alone knows what's best for us. Obviously I feel that's what He is doing. I know He's on my side and it feels good to know that! I'm happy now that I don't have to worry about the jealousy that came with being friends with certain people. Friendship means more to me obviously than it does to others... or so it seems. I don't need people that use me and talk about me behind my back in my life. Those aren't real friends, Never were; never have been.

It makes me excited that God has bigger plans for my life. I'm just sorry that it took me this long to let Him take control!

I have good friends that appreciate me and LOVE me and I don't want to lose those friendships. I will bend over backwards for my friends! I will do what I can, when I can. I try my hardest and that's all I know how to do! I will give you the shirt off my back and I will lay down my life for the few friends that I have! Good friends are hard to come by and I count and consider myself very blessed to have the friends that I do have!

 

 

Life Is Moving Fast...

Life is moving faster than I expected it seems and I can honestly say that I am happier now than I was a few years ago. Its hard to believe that I have been married almost 10 years in June and that my oldest child just turned 9 and my youngest 7. Time goes by so fast when you are having fun and things are really taking shape and going well. My life is changing... especially recently and I think its God's way of saying/telling me to MOVE ON! Sometimes He brings people into your life to help you learn from mistakes and to grow... Obviously He has a sense of humor! lol

I am who I am and I can't help it if you can't handle that! I live my life to please GOD not others! I will not make the same mistake twice that's for sure! I'm tired of having relationships with people who bring me nothing but drama and turmoil! I will not have myself, my family, or my kids around people like that!

BUTT OUT!!

What I do is my business!! If you don't like how I live my life... You don't have to be a part of it! Believe me; I don't mind you being abscent from it.

I'm so sick of people trying to tell me that I spoil my kids and that I shouldn't allow them to have this or that! 

Do you pay my bills?? 

Do you take care of my kids or my family?? 

NO!! 

Therefore BUTT OUT!!

Yes my 8yr. Old daughter has a cell phone and goes to dance... My 6yr. Old is in football and baseball... You don't pay for that and you don't take them to there activities! 

I can't help it that your situation is different than mine and that you can't do the things that our family does. Don't be jealous of my life and my family and friendships so much that you feel the need to talk about it all the time. 

Get your own life and make your own decisions and leave me and my family out of your mouth!! 

1st day of the 1st and 3rd Grade!!

It is the 1st day back to school for my babies!

I can honestly say that I am nervous for them, but I am looking forward to the new beginnings that they are going to start and share!

Serenity is starting 3rd grade and has 2 teachers; Mrs. Story and Mrs. Book!! (yes I know how crazy is that)

Andrew is starting the 1st grade and has only one teacher; Mrs. Chapman!

Their teachers are young and seem to be very sweet! I hope that they have a great first day back to school!

It is a new year and new beginnings because they are at a NEW SCHOOL!

They were at Woodriver and are now at East! Its the same district just a different school!

I am honestly so excited but a little sad at the same time because my babies are growing up and with that is new responsibilities and journeys for us ALL!

So good Luck on your first day MY LOVES!

 

A test of true friendships...

"A true friend doesn’t care when you are broke, being a "pain in the butt", what you weigh, if your house is a mess, what you drive, about your past, or if your family is filled with crazy people. Your conversations pick up where they left off, even if it has been months (or even years) apart. They love you for who you are."

This quote has become a reality to me in the past week!! 

I have had to look hard and deep into my friendships lately! 

I have figured out in the past week that there were people in my life that were obviously using me for whatever their reason may be and I've realized they were never truly my friend to begin with. 

I don't like that I have wasted my time and energy on these specific people, but I also realized that maybe they were put in my path to teach me to become more aware of my surroundings and to love the REAL friends that I DO have! 

I don't know what to think or necessarily how to feel about all this just yet, because I had a lot of memories with this person and I loved her family like they were my family. 

I'm confused and hurt all at the same time... It's hard to think about at times because they were a good part of my life or so I thought! 

I don't know what or how to feel about it all really?!??! 

Playing catch up...

Sooo... Things have been crazy lately!! 

We are staying with my step mom at the moment and have been for a few months now, but are hoping to be moving at the end of September! We have been looking at places and have been mainly looking for a nice three bedroom home. 

My husbands work has picked up and at the moment he is out of town on a job training trip to further his skills! We are excited for the next step in his job and are praying that Lord guide his way through this and whatever His will may be... Let it be!! 

God has truly been so good to us and I am so grateful! 

We recently around the 1st week of July went on a cruise with my daughters dance studio and were able to relax and enjoy some much needed family time. We went to NOLA as some people call it (New Orleans) Louisiana; and boarded the cruise ship and then headed towards Progresso and then Cozumel Mexico. It was such a beautiful experience and I really hope we can do it again in the near future. 

School is about to start next week and I am super excited because the kids will be going to a new school that I think has a better staff and makes you feel so much more welcome! My daughter will be starting 3rd grade and my son will be starting 1st grade. I can't believe how much my babies have grown! 

I pray that everyone is doing well and enjoying the remainder of their summer. 

Remember to always love yourself and therefore it will help you to love others!!