Life is too short...

I have found that its easier for me to just move on and give up than it is for me to ever think that I am going to get passed the issues that I have with certain people. I cant be who they want me to be. They expect me to back down and to give in and act the way that they all act and I cant do that. For the sake of myself and my family I will not back down from what I believe.... Like I have said many a time before I was in the wrong on some things, but I feel as though I was defending myself against those that thought they had the right to start something that didn't concern me.

On a side note I am so glad that I have moved on due to the fact that I am much happier than I have been in a long time. I am not as stressed as I used to be. I mean don't get me wrong I am stressed to say the least about things all the time, but I am in no way stressed out as much as I used to be. As a friend of mine put it... and posted on my myspace today...

Lazy Dayz...

Today has been a lazy day. I have been trying to get things done, but it just seems as though I havent been in the mood to do anything. Go Figure...

I am not looking forward to a phone call from someone that says that she may get into it with my ex friend. I am so tired of all the drama. Seriously it is stressing me out to the point that I am depressed about it all.

I love my new friends to death and I definately DO NOT want anything let alone ANYONE to come between that. I seriously think that these people that were supposed to be my friends need to move on with their own lives and quit trying to ruin what friendships I have left. Get a life of your own already.

...Kickball Weekend...

Tomorrow is going to be a very hectic day and I am actually looking forward to it...Weird I know! But I actually am.

Pictures for kickball are in the morning at 10:30 and then we have Opening Ceremonies at 12 and then an actual kickball game against the Angelfish at 2. I am really hoping that we do well; which I am sure that we will. Weather we win or lose I am going to be happy and thank God that they just have fun. Its so much fun to get to go and watch the girls play and the fact that Serenity has a friend to go and play with is awesome in my book.

I cant wait til Andrew is old enough to get to be in some kind of extra curricular activity. Only a few more years...

Calmness after the Rain...

Today was a good day today as well as yesterday was. It feels good outside for the most part. Had to come in for a bit due to the rain that we got for a little bit. I actually went outside to sit and wait for it to start raining and it felt so good out. The wind was bringing in a cold breeze and it was very peaceful out. Then it started to poor and the rain was getting colder so I had to come in. The rain to me is so calming. I love it. I love to sit and watch it as it cleanses the ground and the earth that we have so badly destroyed and polluted. Its just nice to sit and relax a bit while it rains and get your thoughts out of your head.

Complete Calmness!!!

Im Stonger than Yesterday...

We are doing well this way. Just came inside from being outside all day with the kiddos. We were outside drawing on the sidewalks with sidewalk chalk. I am so burning up... It feels good to be inside in the AC. My skin is a little tight feeling so I am pretty sure that I am a little burnt. Oh well its worth it to know that the kids are having fun!
It feels so good outside and I am so ready to go to the Beach or to go to the Lake and just have some good old fashioned fun. Its been a while since we have been able to decide to get up and go to the Beach or Lake let alone anywhere. Its going to be nice for a change to be able to do that if we would like to. Serenity and Andrew have so much fun and half the time they don't care where we are as long as we are outside.

As for me I am doing good. Things in life are going so much more smoothly than they were a few months back. I have friends that I know I can count on no matter what, and they know that they have a friend in me as well. I don't have to worry or look over my shoulder and think that someone is going to stab me in the back. I am content with life and I am happy that I am free from the drama and the people that started it all. I know that I was and am not innocent in all of it, but I was defending myself from what I thought was the most ridiculous situation to begin with. All because people don't know how to grow up and move on with their lives when a friendship has flown its course. I have apologized and I can do no more.

Happy to say:

Barracuda's 1st Official Game~Saturday 3/21/09

Kickball this Saturday went great! Our Team the BARRACUDA'S won their game, had they actually been keeping score....lol

Serenity did an awesome job too and Miranda had fun till she wasn't able to get the ball because the other girls refused to let anyone else get it... I think that she will get used to it. I had the same problem with Serenity last year and I am sure that Miranda if she wants to be in it again, will really enjoy it.

(Here is the video of Serenity's 1st kick as a Barracuda!!!)

She seems to be enjoying the game more this year compared to last year. I am sure that she is going to have tons of fun with it and that she will make some awesome friends. I can't wait till next year as well when they will be playing a whole different kind of game and they will be keeping score. Serenity loves to play and I know that she is going to be in it as long as we are living here and we can afford it; if she wants to be that is...

Serenity did an awesome job kicking and she did so good with helping Miranda at the game as well. It's so cute to see them together on the field and to know that she has a friend on the team. I love how Miranda looks up to Serenity to show her the ropes and teach her the game.

GO BARRACUDA'S !!!

TWILIGHT

I am looking forward to standing in line at BLOCKBUSTER to receive my pre-ordered copy of TWILIGHT!!! I am so watching the 2 disc set tonight. I literally cant wait to get my hands on it. They are giving away posters as well. I am excited to say the least!

UNIFORMS ARE HERE!!!

Serenity got her uniform today!!! I am so excited to get her dressed and ready to go in the morning for her first official game. I think that she is excited too! The only thing that I have to be sure of is to get her up early enough to be awake enough to want to play. Her actual game is at 9 a.m. and that to me is a little early to get a 4 year old up and ready to play a kickball game.

Socks, Bows, and Kickball

I am so excited because we received the girls bows and socks today and they are so incredibly cute... I cant wait till they get their uniforms and we can get them all decked out for their games... Its going to be so much fun!

(here is a pic of the socks and the bow...)
The kids has kickball practice as well today... They did so good. Its funny how most of them want to play with the bases more than they want to kick the ball and run to the bases. Serenity and Miranda are having so much fun. Miranda was a little hesitant at first, but I think that she is getting the hang of it. Serenity is really trying this year an well. She is on mark and on key when the coaches tell her what she needs to do and where she needs to be. She isn't perfect yet, but she's getting better as time goes by.

(Serenity kicking)

(Miranda kicking)

Time to Party!

I am happy to say that I am going to have a night of freedom from at least one of my kids. Andrew will be her, but he is no problem at all. I am so ready to get out of my skin and be able to have a good time. Serenity is going to grandmas and we are going to be here at the house watching movies, listening to music, and just having a good time with me and the hubby, my sister, and the neighbor lady!

I cant wait!

The Funny Things that kids say:

Just thought that I would share some of the silly things that my kids say...!

~Serenity was walking in front of me and tripped so I asked her "Can you walk much?" this is what she says... I think both my feets are messed up...!

~I was sick in the car on the way home from Houston and I had to throw up (not to be gross) so Mike says get away Serenity trying to be funny and Serenity says, Hello Im like 10 feet away here!!!

Just for a Funny!!!

To find your ROCK STAR NAME take your first pet & current car:
KieLynn Cavalier

To find your GANGSTA NAME take your favorite ice cream flavor and your favorite cookie:
Krakle Peanut

YOUR DETECTIVE NAME? Your favorite color and favorite animal
Green Monkey

Want to know your SUPERHERO NAME? Just add the word “The” plus your 2nd favorite color, and your favorite drink:
The Green Tea

Your NASCAR NAME. Take the first names of your grandfathers:
Marvin Lee

If I ever go into WITNESS PROTECTION you can find me with this name. Your mother & father’s middle names:
Elise Dean

TV WEATHER ANCHOR NAME? Just take your 5th grade teacher’s last name and add a major city that starts with the same letter:
Turner Tokyo

Of course, if you find me in witness protection I will assume it was because you were using your SPY NAME. Add your favorite season/holiday to your flower:
Autumn Rose

Tell your kids their CARTOON NAME by taking your favorite fruit, an article of clothing you’re wearing right now, now add “ie” or “y”:
Strawberry BlueJeansie

And lastly, your ROCKSTAR TOUR is heading across the northeast…it’s called (”The” + Your fave hobby/craft, your fave weather element + the word “Tour”):
The Photopraphy Rain Tour

Free Weekend...

I am so excited to get to have the weekend with the Hubby! He is actually off work and is going to stay home. What I mean by that is that he usually has every other wekend off and when he does have a weekend off he finds the time to go ahead and work it anyway. Dont get me wrong I like that he does that at times, especially when I know that we need the money and I know that we need the money, but I like to have alone time with my man.

He has been so good lately. He has really been helping me with the kids cause I have been under the weather. Well he is always helping me with the kids no matter what, but especially lately. I have been down in the dumps about things and I have been sick with an ear infection and a bad cough that still has yet to subside.

Spring break is this next Monday through Friday for the kids so I get to spend all that free time with them. I enjoy my kids company. I love that I get to be a stay at home mom and that I get to spend that extra time with them. I honestly wouldnt have it any other way. I am so glad that I have an understanding husband that knows my flaws but still loves me.

YOU ARE GREATLY APPRECIATED (I may not always say it to you but you are).

I am glad that I have somone in my life that respects me and knows that I am not perfect in any way and still chooses to love me and be with me unconditionally.

I have been battling security and emotional issues over the past few years and I am here to say today that I am tired of being walked on, pushed around, and abused by people that show no respect for others or themselves.

I am moving on with the better part of my life and that doesnt include you and the people that you call your friends and family.

Today I stand tall and proud taking a stand that I love who I am and who I have become.

We may not have it all together but together we have it all!

Kickball Practice 3/10/09

We had kickball practice last night and Serenity was so attentive. She was a little apprehensive at first cause she fell asleep in the car on the way to practice, but when she ralized what was going on she really got into it.

She has really shown me that she is ready to play this year. The main thing that we have to work on this year is that she needs to go for the ball when it comes her way or comes to her at all. I just want her to have fun!

I am excited that the pictures are going to be done early this year and maybe we will get them in at a descent time. They have all kinds of Memorabilia this year to buy. Gets kinds expensive, but its so worth it in the long run.

I cant wait till the first game!!!

Stressed to the point....

Bills are paid and rent, so why am I stressed?
Well let me tell you!

Andrew has a stomach ulser and he has an upper respiratory infection and an ar infection to boot. He has been vomiting every night before he goes to bed. They put him on medication to get rid of the infaction that is a bacteria that caused the ulser. I am just worried about my son. I guess you could say that I am stressed to the point that I could cause myself to get an ulcer which wouldnt do us any good at all. He has lost alot of weight. It just worries me that he is going to get to thin and then that he could get sick because he is so thin. Needless to say I am just worried. The dr says that he is going to be fine. I just need to make sure that he takes his medicine and that he takes all of it till it is GONE. I am determined to get that taken care of.

I dont get it...Yet I do!

Why can't some people just move on with their lives?
I don't understand what people get out of bothering others and trying to make others lives miserable.
I guess that I will never know what it is that you get out of trying to ruin our lives and trying to be better than everyone else.

Good luck with your life and try to stay away from mine. I am so glad that I live my life not trying to please others, but trying to please God.
He is the true reason why I should wake up and be happy that I am alive and well.
What more can I ask for when it comes to my life and what I get out of it?
Thankyou for your encouraging words daily and for always being by my side. Even when I fall short of your grace and I know that I should stay on the path of rightousness.

Kickball Season has Begun

To day was a great day to get things started for kickball.
Side note:
Serenity's first kickball practice was so great. The coaches were and are so prepared. They had a great time and it was so nice to be able to watch her interact with the other girls.
Serenity and Miranda are great this year. Miranda did great especially for it being her first practice. Serenity did so good. Im not worried that she doesnt know what she is doing. All around it was a good practice. The coaches had everything ready. We recieved their coke orders, their picture order forms, and the game schedule for the entire season. Times and all. We even know who has to bring snacks and when and what game. Its going to be smooth running season. I am so thrilled!

The past few days...

Kickball practice tonight. I am excited to get to meet Serenity's coaches and get her all ready to go and play. I am sure that its going to be alot easier this time. Especially since I know that they know what they are doing.
Serenity is really getting excited. I know that she cant wait either. I cant wait to see the outcome of this season.
On a side note I am and have been up all night because Andrew is sick. I have been keeping him next to me and watching him because he has been vomiting all night starting around 6ish. I am a little worried that he might get dehidrated, but the dr says that he should be fine as long as we try to keep pushing the fluids on him. My poor little man. He doesnt feel well and you can tell it just by looking at him. Serenity just got over a stomach bug and I am sure that is what Andrew is going through now. GREAT!!! Ugh!
And to top it all off; I am sick to the point that I can barely talk. Oh Well! Life goes on!